if i try hard enough i can convince myself you really love me
if i try hard enough i can pretend you aren't lying to me.
if i convince myself well enough, and you're a good enough actor
its like love, isnt it? in a disgusting way.
we can both pretend, that im worthy of love
and that you love me.
and its love in the end, if we both say it is.
and its easier to pretend that the words you say are truth
than admit maybe ive always been wrong.

you're disgusted.